if you see it, just close those blue eyes like you mean it

Tomorrow is the last day of classes, and then we have finals and then fin to junior year of college. Golly, that was quick! I am still in awe that college has been skipping past me like a child on the playground. It is just a fleeting sight, quick to leave. I am constantly bombarded with the fact that I will be leaving familiarity soon, and though I can adapt well, I am still nervous about this upcoming change.

On another note, Aaron and I have taken on a new hobby of reading together! This is really exciting for me because I love books and writing and everything to do with paper and words. One of my professors told me that her and her husband would read to one another and it strengthened their relationship a lot. When you read to someone or they read to you, it builds a sense of trust because you begin trusting them for a positive outcome to the story. You trust their words and they enjoy you listening and visa versa. We are reading The Priest's Graveyard by Ted Dekker and it is a Christian thriller, and Dekker is one of my favorite authors. I got the book from my parents and Aaron and I had been looking for a book to read together, so we chose this one. We are thinking that our next book will be a little bit more happy however.

I wish the weather would warm up. It is getting rather dreary outside and I wish the sun would come out. It would be so lovely to have lunch outside with my friends. Maybe sometime this week.

Life is beautiful, enjoy every precious moment.

Closing Time

The school year comes to a close for me next Tuesday. After that, I will be a senior in college and that is quite honesty, extremely terrifying. I have one more year before I actually become and adult and have to do things that I won't have a clue about doing. Such as getting a real job??? Since when did this all happen? When did I grow up?

There are many more things to think about nowadays as I prepare for senior year and living in an on-campus apartment - the in-between step so that a real apartment is not so shocking. I have to figure out what I am going to bring, what my schedule from day to day will look like and what I will be doing outside of my classes. Next semester I have Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays off and I am still debating whether or not I should get an off-campus job. Just thinking about all these choices is making me go nutty.

All I know is that the Lord has a plan and that no matter what next year is going to amaze me and I am going to enjoy every moment. My life is slowing down and I am so grateful to finally have fewer things to cause anxiety. Since returning from Mississippi, I feel myself just deflating from all the pressure of the trip.

And in the past few weeks since starting this new relationship with Aaron, I have been thinking about what the next year and the summer will look like with him. What will this year bring for us in this exciting new adventure? We are already planning many fun dates for the summer and we look forward to cooking together in my apartment. We want to maintain a healthy relationship that truly brings joy to our lives and to our time together. I am excited to see what happens this summer and throughout our senior year and to see where life takes us. I really care about him and I am so thankful for him and the man he is. God has truly given me a gift that I will always cherish.

Hear the Peepers

You know the weather is getting warmer when you can hear the peepers. Their loud racket signifies the freedom of summer air and that steady nighttime breeze. When you hear them, you feel calm because you know that beautiful days are ahead and soon the cool New England weather will let up and let us celebrate.

One of my favorite parts of summer is being barefoot in the grass. It feels free and invigorating. My toes intertwined with my yard is tempting and I cannot wait to have my bare feet allowed to be wherever they please. The thought is wonderful, and soon this rainy and dreary weather will pass.

Until then I will listen to the peepers and dream of sunny days and lazy nights. I wish I could be outside now next to a fire with people I love roasting a marshmallow and smiling. Summer is not far off and it will be worth the wait.