Have You Seen...?

Sometimes you just feel lost. Like there is an empty cavern housing itself inside of you. You feel like there is something missing. Why does your heart feel so out of place? And why is your mind never in the same moment as you?

What makes us lost? Where do we get this crazy belief? I do not have those answers. All I know is that that is how I feel. Lost. Like there is no one to claim me. Like I was forgotten at baggage claim and my owner will never come back. I am not filled with important things anyway, so what's the use in carrying around a piece of luggage that really has no value to you regardless.

This is a moment of rarity. I usually don't feel like this. But every once in a while it creeps up and hits me. That maybe I am really alone. Not really, because I always have God. But that here in earth, I am alone. Just fending for me and that everyone else just walks past me and doesn't even see my sad little wave as they walk on by.

Sleepless in Wenham

Orientation is insane, that is for sure. I have been through a week of training and now I have my group of kids that I get to watch over and guide through the first initial days and weeks of the college life. It is overwhelming and all volunteer work. And I love it. I have met so many great people and I have gained a lot of confidence about meeting new people and being outgoing. I am somewhat shy and timid, but orientation has made me step out of that comfort zone. There are many things that would have bothered me before that don't bother me anymore. I am able to do anything!

Just thought I would say that and how much I am enjoying this experience and this opportunity to serve God in such a servant-like position. This is what God called me to do... be a servant to Him and His people. And I will do it until the day I die.